The Black Hole

I am underwater.  Or maybe in a tunnel.  I know there is light above, somewhere, and I want to reach for it, to embrace it, but something holds me back.  I'm groggy.  I feel heavy.  Pulling myself up seems like a Herculean task.

I hear well-meaning voices at the surface.  They call to me with the pull of everyday life - there is grocery shopping to be done.  Laundry to be washed.  Motions to write.  Clients to call.  A child to bathe.  A family to spend time with.  And yet.....they are so far away.  I can't quite reach.

And yet, I cannot fail to do these things. Can I?

And yet.

Get a Life!

No, that's not necessarily directed at you, personally.  Actually, I directed this statement to myself a few months ago.

Yes, my "shadow days" are over....but that doesn't mean that life doesn't suck sometimes. It does.

Over these past few years, my resolve and determination have been tested, my relationship has been tested, my sanity has been tested. And my vision of the life I want to have has been tested. It has altered so much that sometimes I don't recognize myself in it.

Something had to change.  So I started working with a life coach. Now, now, don't make fun - hear me out. Because it's the best thing I've done for myself in a long time, and, if you want, you can do it too. Our email address is mylifewithpie@gmail.com, in case you want it. After I tell you all about coaching....you just might.