Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes....

Whether we like it, change is all around us. The season is about to change, the colors of the leaves are about to change...and my life is about to change too.

Before Anna came along, I had a full-time, demanding litigation job. I continued that work until she was about a year and a half old, and then, when I realized we would be raising her for good, I knew I needed a change. I took a job that was "mommy-friendly" - Fridays off, flexible scheduling, etc. That way, whenever Anna was sick, I could be there. If her day care was closed, I could be there. It was the perfect thing for that time in our lives.

Anna loves her beach time....

The Working Mother's Dilemma

Yesterday I discussed my evolving career goals and the disillusionment I have felt with work after becoming a parent.  To be honest, I started feeling that way even before Anna came along, but her entrance definitely intensified those feelings and radically changed my self-concept.

Why was I having enthusiasm issues when I should have been bright eyed and ready to conquer the world? That’s easy – the career wasn’t what I thought it would be. As a paralegal, I saw that the lawyers I worked for really helped people. I wanted to do that too. My first job certainly gave me the opportunity to do that – I had clients going through divorce and custody issues, clients who had been injured in accidents, and clients facing criminal charges.

My Place In This World

My best friend once said there’s a song for everything, and it’s so true. This particular one takes me back to 8th grade or so, listening to Michael W. Smith with my church youth group.

Of course, this seems like a lifetime ago. But I have thought about it more than once over these almost three years of parenting Annapie, as I’ve been “looking for a reason, roaming through the night to find my place in this world, my place in this world….”